MY FRAGMENTED SELF
Wow, that is a mouthful.
What does this phrase even mean?
What is a fragmented self?
If you are experiencing a fragmented self, it simply means
that your intentions are not in line with your actions. We as humans will probably go in and out of
this many times in our souls as we navigate our paths in this life. To start we have to first ask ourselves what
our intentions in life are and then learn the skill and discipline of applying
the action of those intentions in a real way.
I recently treated myself to a weekend yoga and meditation
retreat near Fort Collins at the Shambhala Mountain Center. I went because I did not take any time off
for the holidays from work and was feeling like I needed to surround myself
with some other spiritually inclined “seekers” and gather some higher energy
for myself. I also just watched one of
my best friends slowly die this last month and said goodbye to him for the last
time before I left for my retreat. Even
though I had already booked my retreat before I knew how sick my friend was, it
was perfect timing to have some space to myself alone to sort through my
feelings about losing him.
As us folks in Wyoming wait for the weather to actually feel
like spring, I feel that the effects of this vibrant season have been in full
force for the last two months. Spring
and autumn are the two seasons in the year that are all about transition. While autumn represents a slowing down into
hibernation, spring represents a speeding up into awakening and the birth of
new life. Though this is a beautiful process, I feel a bit like a grumpy bear
being woken up from my peaceful winter slumber.
WHAT IS LOVE? THE ANSWER MIGHT BE IN THE QUESTION OF WHAT IS SELF-LOVE?
What is love? Not
just a question for the 90’s techno song but a deeply profound question that
has been asked for centuries and will remain one of the most mysterious and
unique of human experiences on this earth plane. As a soul that seeks to understand the nature
of love in my life, my path has continually seemed to direct me back towards
self-love, as the foundation for comprehending all other forms of love.
As a gal from Wyoming and Norwegian by descent I’ve never
minded all the snow and ice in fact I find it comforting. In keeping in tune with the seasons I quite
appreciate the times where I can hide in my warm apartment and watch the Lord
of the Rings Trilogy back to back with my kitties. Winter is a time when everything in nature
hibernates and is a wonderful time for silence and reflection. That being said there are still those days
where my van won’t start because it was -20 during the night, I can’t find a
matching hat and scarf set to save my life and start feeling a little